Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Busy with a short fuse

It's been nose to the grindstone time for the last couple of weeks. Unfortunately, that's not really producing more data. It is, however, creating one tired and cranky microbiologist.
At this point, I am in the midst of troubleshooting. As we know, troubleshooting does not equal data. Therefore, I working more than 40 hours a week. Normally, this is not a problem. However, with less than two weeks to go until my due date, it's tiring. The internal battle isn't doing me any favors at the moment either.

Tired, pregnant me: "Fuck this shit. Just try to get done whatever you can within the amount of time that you have and let it go. It will be here when you get back"

Career-driven, microbiologist me: "Don't be such a whiny little bitch. If you don't get this stuff accomplished, you will be kicking yourself later. If you can be in a position to do some serious writing, you will have something you can work on from home and your transition back to work will go much more smoothly. Besides, if you try really hard and still don't get this finished then you'll dwell on it less as you know you did the best you could do."

Career-driven me is still wining, but tired pregnant me is making serious gains.

10 comments:

ScientistMother said...

listen to tired pregnant me. Once the little one is here, you're going to have to learn to turn your mind off science and onto the hir when you get home. I really really am not preachy, more learn from my mistakes

Anonymous said...

I agree with SM. When I returned to the lab after my daughter's birth, I realized all that work I tried to cram into the last few weeks wasn't done that well, and had to repeat most of it. Coming from the 'other side' (post-birth), it wasn't worth it to push myself those last few weeks.

microbiologist xx said...

SM - I don't take it as preachy. What you are saying sounds totally logical. I just keep thinking, tired or not, I have more energy and time now than I will when I first get back to work, but I am already starting to accept that I just don't have time to get done what I wanted.

Anon - Fortunately, I am just making strains and constructs right now, so they are either right or wrong. I was hoping to actually use them before I left for maternity leave, but it is just not going to happen. I don't even want to imagine how it would be if I were trying to run a bunch of assays right now. My brain feels like it is at 50% these days.

transientreporter said...

Get rest. You'll need energy to deal with a whole new set of issues in a few weeks.

Mine is out! Big, fat and sleepy...

tideliar said...

Urgh, sorry dude. Bloody typical eh. Then again, if you were generating scads of data the battle would still wage...

Thomas Joseph said...

You should tell the career-driven part to stop "wining". You don't want the kidlet to come out craving a some Pinot noir, do you?

Best of luck!

tideliar said...

Hello? How do have baby!?

soil mama said...

yeah, yeah, do you have a baby yet???

chall at work said...

baby yet?

(what? we are nosy? naahh.. just curious :) hope all goes well!! )

microbiologist xx said...

she is here - arrived on Thursday. I wrote a brief post about it for you guys and gals. :)